What's Wrong?

• Mom: What's wrong?
• My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
• My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
• My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
• My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
• My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
• My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
• My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.
• My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
• Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.

That's from a tumblr post.well,that speaks my mind,most of it actually. 

sucky grades, are the people i'm with really my friends? yes i do feel more and more lonely,hmm, doubting most things i do,wondering what's w the change and madness, thinking too much unnecessarily, have been consuming a meal a day lately :/ and fuck ya, was thinking about who really cares omw home ):

sigh,just when i was thinking life's turning to the brighter side. 

so i feel though i seem to be socializing more these days, i'm starting to think waaaayyyy too much and i find myself socially awkward half of the time.

i think i'm rather honest and open - no more shame and i think i'm rude or maybe act suddenly giving people a shock at times :/

i'm starting to find a thousand flaws in myself,what happened to the appreciative girl? 

and how i can i forget,i've been showing my flaws and making myself seem dumb lately ):

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY i really wanna know,i think i'm sufferring from depression,it's just a feeling but i see no apparent reason to why i'd be psychologically unstable, to why i'd have a psychological disorder. and why suddenly?

maybe it's exam stress?dearie once pointed out to me that i get overwhelmed with a whole lot of shit when it nears exam,see it's happening again,why oh why i wonder. yes i'm frustrated.

I think people who see me in the public probably think i'm mad or something,i think i appear as some emo-insane human on the streets.dam,fuck this mother fucking shit. see i'm getting vulgar too ):

i neeeeed to talk to someone and know if i'm like this,the only people who i see will answer me honestly are a handful,not even 5 please.there's 4 on my mind.one whom i think might end up making me feel better.another whom i guess will look for other's fault if i'd to narrate the reasons to my feelings.the 3rd one would probably base it on the minimal amount of info,come up with solutions that i may end up finding too extreme.and lastly, the one who tolerates all my crap, i feel bad for pounding over and over again with different issues,sigh.

so what's the conclusion,i really don't know!!!!!!!!!!

life's a complicated bitch,are you sure you can handle it all by yourself?