self-esteem.

what is self-esteem?

well, in ob's context it is how good one feels about himself. so today i have low self-esteem.. theoretically it isn't supposed to change as the days change, but there are always exception,aren't there?
it's like one day you wake up feeling confident and really good about yourself but on the next you just drag moving your ass off the bed and want to sleep the day away...there really isn't much you can control am i right?

today is just one day that i'm on a low self-esteem. i think generally i have high self-esteem,haha. really think highly about myself though there isn't a really strong justifiable reason for me to think that way..well i don't intend to burst my bubble but today is just an exception.

I feel as though my hormones are all over the place like since i was born...maybe i was born too late cause ya....my parents were over the age to once again become parents when i came by,well i think that way.
so because they were old there might have been something wrong in the transfer of the genes from them over to me.its nobody's fault genuinely, what is suppose to happen would find its way and i'm totally cool with it. i think i'm special and lucky because i've been overly loved and pampered and its such a joy being the youngest and all but today is just jt3ijhbnq'ifkgbjm.

it's one of the days that i look at myself and glaring at me is all my imperfections. they're overflowing and i don't quite know how to react to it.

a day whereby i abandon everything - my phone has been lying around somewhere, feels like i've quite a few people to go reply to but heck it for now and i've done nothing much productive.

hownowbrown cow? 

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