messed.

it's great to know that people appreciate you but at other times, problems are overwhelming.

yes,that sentence above makes no sentence..before and after the coma topic is totally different.

today started on a horrible note for no practical reason.when i woke up i just didn't feel like getting up of my bed and didn't feel like studying for my test today and didn't feel like cleaning the house. so all i did all morning long was stare at the tv and sleep.

and then a number of them started texted me about today's test and thanks to them i revised a bit and even more thanks for the company in school to study.

and then all the thinking explained my feeling in the morning. fuck this shit.
i don't want to be in that position all over again. urg.

i hate reading people's mind.especially when it says so much and so little at the same time. fixing the puzzle pieces becomes so difficult.

am i a distraction?
who am i?
why does everything seem to be changing?

so much to say but you're not even there to listen.
i shall be patient and wait for your arrival.
you're different from the rest.
please come soon!

<3

i'm holding too many secrets at the moment,please give me strength to contain everything within myself and do what i need to.