beginning of a new chapter.

crucial week starting from tomorrow.i really hope i don't get distracted badly and hopefully i'll spend most of the time studying for my upcoming papers.really thankful that tomorrow's paper is @ 5 though initially i was complaining about it.well at least i can still have monday blues followed by some last min revision before the test in the evening.

i believe its the start of a new chapter in life for me since i guess saturday.

its all weird how people can say so much about you from so far away and by barely knowing you.how they can confidently say everything that's happening is all fated.how can see a clear vision of their tomorrow.how they can change sides in less than 5 minutes.everything, it just amazes me.

honestly, i must be suffering from some illness,i'm 99% sure about this but i'm too scared or rather i'm just too bo chap to even care about it,let nature take its troll. i have external locus of control. which i thing has more bad than good :/
anyway the point is that people praising me doesn't make me feel happy..unless the one saying it has some importance in my life.

its mean to say that some people are not important in another's life when they're there doing quite a bit. idk...maybe i'm using all the wrong words to say what i truly feel.

everything or in fact nothing is making sense to me right now.

i'm back to the i'm lost path and yesterday was the unfaithful night that lead to all the thinking.funny how i was engaging in so many convos and yet had time to think about stuff i shouldn't.

sometimes i feel i'm so fierce but at others i feel i'm not. i need to learn to be fiercer.my current status is stubborn i guess. well that's that people who think on surface level feel.

so much to say but i'm not in the mood.

so for now just i miss you,i need you,come back cause there's so much to say.

all the best to me for my exams this week. may the odds ever be in favour for everything that's happening and going to happen.