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Why is it that everytime i'm low i turn to this space to express myself?
why not when i'm happy or when i'm leading a 'normal' life,not that i am not though.

just when i forgot my problem,booom,there it is before me once again.i don't blame anyone for this but myself,the problem is there whether or not i think about it so it's my duty to get rid of it right?

I think i have to invest more time into quite a lot of things.
I'm so sad right now cause i just realised i won't be seeing le people until like one wk later. but i'm glad to have spent the entire week with them (:
I'm so glad for my friends, i can cry. i mean it in a super sweet way. like they've been telling me they're here for me and boosting my strength and courage so must,it makes me tear with joy.
sometimes i feel low times like this is really important because it shows you who cares and who doesn't give a fuck.
but i've been ranting and complaining too much that i feel it's time i show them how much i appreciate it.
but then again howwww? i feel like a nutcase these days, i'm so blur and slow,i'm always lost to what i'm supposed to do,it's a real bad thing :/

so my bebo is leaving law. although i'm not very close to her, i feel this special connection. she was the one who had faith in me and trusted me even before we met face to face. she tried so much to make this friendship of ours grow to the point i felt like i was not letting her in my life.it's a regret i did not spend as much time as i could have with her. well, i hope she does well over at her college and becomes a successful legal assistant,my best wishes are with her always. i hope i can say a proper good bye to her on monday. really hope to see her this one last time. she's one sociable people. i knew the others through her.i guess i'm sad because i honestly feel i don't clique with people my race so easily and now that i did, life acts as a hindrance to the friendship.
I'm fated not to have close indian friends,HAHAHA.it's true okay~
I'll try talk to shalu more often,could see how she was going to break into tears when bebo broke the news to us. it felt like a couple parting,i'm not even kidding.

I'm so weird these days, my behaviour, my words, my thoughts, my actions. whats going on?!