When you don't know where to to go

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On the first day of 2013 I was determined to be back to my old sociable self.a noisy girl in class who makes friends easily and can have a casual convo with almost anyone.

But today,I feel like retreating from the world all over again. I don't know what triggered me but it's really how I feel..I can totally see myself being that typical girl who stays in her room all day watching tv and spending the time on the computer,on tumblr particularly.

Oh well,that's not my point.I have no problems with staying home and doing chores.

Baat to friendships ki hai.mujhe aisa kyo lagta hai ki meray pass koyi karibi doost nahi hai? Sab log aapni aapni life mai itnay masroof hai ki meray baaray mai socchnay ka waqt hi nahi?

Kuch waqt phelay mai aapnay doosto ko lay kar bahaut shukar guzar thi par aap aisa nahi raha.

I think I know what the problem is.larkay.yes larkay.jab unkay life mai larkay nahi thay tab hum bahaut karib the.now that there's someone,its all retreating.

How do I salvage this?

Mujhe unsay bahaut baatain karni hai,even if I have nothing much to say.magar I don't want to be making the first move all the time.I feel I've been doing it way too much.it takes two hands to clap.so I cant be in this alone.

Maybe mujhe hi samajnay mai deri hogayi.kya pata unko ab meri zaroorat nahi hai issy liye baat ya phir milna choor diye.

Mujhe bhi dekhna hai ki kitni derr baat wo log mujhe baat karangay. Let's wait and watch.

Maybe the saying - new relations cause old ones to be forgotten is true.

On a side note,so proud of myself for this partial post to be in mother tongue! Achievement.*pats self*

Really hoping to feel better.