2013 had a pretty good start with things falling into place. me knowing what i really want to do and focusing on them. me knowing how to manage my time and prioritize my work. but then came a day that just ruined everything.it was just all gone within minutes just when i thought i've got a tight grip.
well,its okay.i'm going to overcome all of this and i know it.what's life without challenges after all. how are you going to know how strong you are if you're never going to fall,right?
Thank god,i'm still positive with all of this because the day i'm not,its going to be the end.
Been procrastinating with all of my work. There's this whole long list waiting to be cancelled off. I don't understand why projects and tests must come at the same time. Really hope i'll be able to finish everything with flying colours, in a need to score well.
Don't like how everyone has a very high expectation of me.its horrible to disappoint people when you don't meet their expectations. Hate it how some people are just so nossy that they only make conversations with you just to know how you did. it sucks. not because you don't want to let others know how you did but because it just destroys you from within.
Have let not only myself down but also my family and friends. and even people who probably don't even care about it - ehm,classmates.
Really hoping to secure at least two As or even better Zs this semester and now am unsure if i'm able to do it.sigh.
All of this feeling low shit, is not only associated with school.
I've been trying my best to fulfill my new year's resolution or rather kick a healthy habit into myself but i can't seem to do it. the feeling of failing is not something i can tackle. i'd just give up overtime and i've done it too many times and it just has to stop.
and then there's this thing about not being able to say goodbyes. i don't understand why every year i have to bid farewell to someone close in some way. its just saddening. just the thought of it makes my mind wander way too much. hope i don't have to say anymore goodbyes in 2013 and better still for the next few years.
and then there's this stress of travelling. its so overwhelming that it takes away my precious sleep.have been talking way too much about this that i don't want to repeat it a x'th time.
no matter how i much i don't want to talk about this, i can no longer keep this within me.i can't even share it with anyone, be it a friend or a family member.maybe i can only do it with the person whose involved in this or some random stranger..both of which is not an ideal choice,it might just complicate things a lot further. all i can do i suppose is hope for things to go back to normal,or my feelings to just vanish.
may the remaining approximately 350 days of 2013 be as amazing as when it started.
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