Goodbye

Goodbyes suck big time,probably one of the things that shouldnt exist in the world..

It causes a lot of unrest especially when it occurs suddenly without any warning.

My world feels empty suddenly.the pieces which used to form it have all gone and now I'm left with just 2.

Thank God that it's only temporarily gone,I'd be dead by now if it were to be permanent.

So yes,my huge family has reached safely back in hometown, village.they would be loving the slow paced lifestyle there after years of hetic hell here.

My dear friend would probably be having wine and sulking because she's been taken to a country she didnt want to visit.

My newest friend who grew so close in a short time,which shocked me,myself has gone missing for the past 5 days.

What's worst he's gone w/o saying anything.though I've a strong feeling he's unwell and admitted,i can't get myself to patiently wait. That silly boy doesn't even tell people his problems and that's what worries me most.

And because he's so far away,there's minimal I can do.contemplating to call but if he hasn't read my msges what are the chances he'll pick up?

So anyway, goodbye to le family was horrible.in the early daze they were still making talks abt me going.and then when it was time to depart all was going well till that sissy of mine asked for a hug,long one and baaaam I lost it.

I love hugging,it makes you feel good and is healthy to.not only that it strengthens the bond physically and internally. But a goodbye hug is awful. You control yourself so hard and then when it comes to hugging that exercised control disappears.

So here I am back at home with my 2 pieces of world, one my dearest brothers,sissy and  the 11 yr old chap.it's not that bad because there's five of us but on normal days it's just bro and me,more of me,me and me because bro works late and is exhausted by the time he's in so it's an early night for him. Oh well,cant wait for the long weekends!

And then there's this other 1 piece,probably the only one who reads this space.technically speaking there's 2 people in this 1 piece but ya...they're so near yet so far.that's one reason why Singapore sucks.everything revolves around your corporate life- education,career. Makes those close to you drift away.so annoying.nonetheless, I'm greatly thankful to these 2 people in my life.

I bet youre smiling while reading this cause you know I'm referring to you (;

Loveeeee you more than words can say!<3

Hmm,I drifted away from my title but ohh well,chaos~