Brace yourself

Temptation: HIGH
Patience: LOW
Risk: HIGH
Resistance: LOW

gosshhh, can't hold it no more.i need to scream and tell you how much i love you,how much i've dreamt about you, how much i've enjoyed talking to you, how much i love your voice, how much i love us and how far i foresee us going. but then again i don't want my hopes to be crushed just like that. reality hit me a few days ago and hit real hard, the percentage we'll work out is probably just 10? i have no idea where the other 90 went to.and then i dont know if telling you is the right thing to do but i seat here thinking everyday it's time to let the cats out of the bag,to face it and to stand strong.it's rather stupid to sit here loving you but do nothing more than weaving false dreams and getting submerged in into unrealistic imaginations.
when is the right time and how is the right way?
hate myself for having this urge at the wrong timing. i mean i hope i can hold on for at least a wk more.

i'm starting to dislike the world in general. too many people have been telling me to get attached, i just dont get WHY! can you tell me? am i not happy enough single? i am,i really am though i know there's someone out there whom i wish i'd be together with today but yah it's fine if we're not.time will bring us together. if we're not meant to be then .....but me constantly seeking for someone to love that's just bullshit okay. i don't get people who say ' i am actively looking for a partner' like wtf,seriously. i know love at first sight does happen but you opening your eyes bigger to search for someone is just not it.
i may have an old fashioned thinking but heck it i still believe that at the right time in your life, someone special will pop by and tadaa it'll just happen.

i also don't understand why people today are so materialistic! why can't people help one another? why must everyone mind their own business and be so heartless or say have a metal heart which is so difficult to melt? i was at my bro's house today and my uncle came out of the blue,happened to open the door and wtf he asked me 'what are you doing here'. like hello it's my bro's house,i have every right to be there.and then out there in the world everyone is mocking one another in some way or another. an accident occurs,people take photo of it instead of helping the injured. the world laughs at the picture posted instead of sympathising and asking how's the injured doing.you know a friend is troubled but you choose to ignore the fact.argh.

life's unfair beyond infinity. and i'm so thankful, great full and appreciative of the people who stand by me in every problem of mine.especially people who aren't so close to me but bare with my endless daily rants! ❤

lastly, i'm starting to feel my obsession over you is beyond infinity, an everlasting one which will stay till my very last breath.❤