bye 2012,hello 2013

give it a thought, why is it such a big deal just because it's a new year? i mean, its just another day.you practically don't feel any difference...its an ordinary day made big by society,by individuals.
think about it every 1st of jan is made big, people celebrate it, they enjoy themselves, they scream out happy new year.
but why don't they do the same on other similar occasions? like chinese new year? its the beginning of a new lunar calender year also and why not on the first day of the islamic calender?

it just doesn't make sense to me. would appreciate it if someone to explain this whole thing to me.
anyway, such occasions are always a good time to look back and pick up meaningful lessons and to learn from mistakes. retain what's good and change what's bad.

so here's a reflection on my 2012 (let's see how much i can remember) :

January
I don't quite remember what happened except for fauzi's birthday, ice cream cheft with bimbz and henna's reception.

February
This marked the official end of my 1st yr in poly. exams during my birthday for the 1st time in life and a quite valentine's day. 18th birthday made memorable by my awesome family. there was also a 29th this yr,hehe,lehan turned 4 and finally had her first celeb.

March
Started with a bang. Tried new things and saw life with a different perspective. not to forget my weird hormones started to kick in right here. Lots of outings with le friends and more with family.

April
Yr 2,not a good start - huge transformation of self behaviour in schoold grounds :/

May/June
Can't remember what i was doing in this 2 mths. Ah girl was having her intern during this period? and i was super crazyly mad in my own bubble?

July 
Holy-month of ramadan. Disappointing moment when i knew i could not travel this yr :( remember feeling super tired,idk why.

August
Hari Raya amidst exams. Shopping for raya outfits for the first time,aha,i sound stupid here but oh well. Raya Bazaar with ah girl <3

September
I don't know if it was in Sep or not but byee to my horrible obsession and the bubble finally burst,yay! and hello to new person in life. HOLIDAYS! :D A good break from everything.

October
First working experience, shopping for india, sad ending of the month with me being in sg by myself and dreaded back to school.

November
Lots of weddings which i could not attend. spend lots of time at home, practiced home-making skills, haha.

December
Family reunion,after 2 long months. mid-sem test.and finally a break,yipee.

Hmm,my life sounds so mundane,like nothing much happened.
Can remember myself making so much mistakes along the way, so many learnings took place.

In short, 2012 has transformed me to a more independent and sensible girl. it showed me a lot of things  and changed my perceptions too. i think i'm a better me now.
Thankyou for the changes and for being an eye opener (:




Welcoming 2013 with only one aim. Don't want to have too many in fear of not accomplishing them.


And the one thing is to be a more religious person. insyallah. yes it's about time i look into this aspect.

and of course i'm hoping for the year to be filled with exciting events and a less dramatic life of mine. things should begin to be stable.hehe (;

In a few hours!

<3

29/12/12

It's the last Saturday of the year and rather well spent.

I love family time although what we do most of the time is just stay arnd the house and eat and watch a movie and have endless chats. But its just <3<3<3

today was good.went out with le sis n bro then had family time with a nice movie and tea break and chats and laughter and lots of photos and a great dinner.

House was left in a mess but it was worthwhile (:

Besides that.I just have so much to say to practically everyone but  words arent just coming out of my mouth.other then last night when I had an argument w le sis.

Oh and really thankful for the gifts from ally siblings.have been receiving quite a number of stuff and I totally love all of it.today's gift just touched me :D

A random thought just flew in.if he's younger than me why would my grandma have match made us together? From what I know, in the olden days, their believes and all was that the guy should be older?

So it doesnt make sense.I want to ask so badly but I'm not going to.things seem to be.....idk.maybe it's just me and my excessive thinking.

Oh well.

Really thankful for everything that's been happening in my life.alhamdulilla for each event whether small or big or happy or sad because I believe everything happens for the better.

Cheers,

<3

Ice cream buffet

this holidays,it seems like i only did 1 productive thing and that is ice cream buffet with my dear friend.

have only spent 2 days out with my friends so far in the past 2 weeks.its kinda sad.nevertheless,i've had a good time with my family on several days, the weekends and christmas to be more precise.

convincing dad for travelling during the next break is still on-going. hwaiting~

so ice-cream buffet. we decided to have a proper meal first before the buffet so wow it was too much fooood!
we had a main course each and a side each - they were having some promo which gave us a side or ice-cream for free....so we took the side cause we were going to have ice cream alr anyway...yummy food made us quite full just half way through it.

then came the buffet, one should go there empty stomach and just simply indulge in the ice cream..it'll be totally worth it!

8 choices of cakes excluding brownies.

so many flavours to choose from,they had normal ice cream and gelato. didn't really like the gelato..maybe it was the flavour we picked. ice cream was yummmmy! i chose the flavours that they don't have in their normal menu,cappucino cookies is extremely yummy for coffee lovers! <3

lots of toppings to choose from too.from dried fruits to fruits  to ice kacang toppings (chendol,nata de coco,etc) to chocolatey treats and cereals and stuff.

they also had fondue both chocolate and white chocolate and strawberries and mashmallows

Chop chop station which we didn't try.saw no point in it. we could just mix out topping with our ice cream on our own so....

that pretty much sums up our eating spree! wasn't in much of a mood to shop so decided to fully indulge in fooood,hehe.

cheers to completing one more item on my 18th to-do list, i believe 3 more to go..wonder if i'll ever complete those,haha.

<3

YTriggered

Just saw a tumblr post saying:

' I hate the idea of someone else having you'

It's at times like this when I really wonder if there's someone else.

Though you assured me there wasnt any a mth ago,how can I be certain it's still the same?

I want to ask but I don't want to go off as insecure and afterall I do know you wouldn't like me asking.

So curious about what happened to the 3 girls.

Oh how oh why.

All this that's happening makes me wonder even more. Curiosity kills the cat and it'll soon kill me too.

All this talk less thing,what does it mean? It is definitely possible there's someone else there whose taking up all your time leaving a pathetic amt for me :(

Maybe its all my fault.for putting off a wrong impression.shouldn't have said so much.oh well what's done cannot be undone. I'm sorry!

Maybe I should really tell you how I feel.but I'm not so certain myself,so how,what shall I do?

<3

Weirdly amusing

It's funny how when I'm extremely low or extremely high I wish I could talk to you.

You get on my mind even more and if I'm down that ruins everything mOrd but if I'm high your words never failed to make smile.

Its really very strange and I don't know what to do about it.

Hate myself for getting attached to people too easily.it sucks.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm....... Fuck no fuck.I'm not saying it until I'm oh so certain.

berkencan di kampong indonesia

my title today is just awesomeee.
makes me sound like a infinity-lingual pro, hehehe.

anyway let me translate it for you: dating in a village in indonesia

was having this late night chat with my sissy and le domestic helper. so sissy suddenly asked her how she met her husband and stuff and then it was the start of this amazing story. its too cute to resist and therefore i can't help but blog about it...since i can't utter it out to a random person.

as we all know village people are usually more conservative compared to the city peeps. so her husband was from the same village, her bro's friend.they (bro and his friends) used to play outside her house and one day taadaaa,her husband noticed her and they being innocent and guai kids did not date secretly.
the dude had to approach her father and ask for permission to bring his daughter out.father being strict only allowed her to go out to have lunch and be back home within 2 hrs..SO CUTEEE!
i'd be so pissed if i was only given 2 hrs,i mean what can we do in such awhile mannnn?


so they went out a couple of times and then the dude went to the dad to ask her hand in marriage....since it was love,no wonder she married young and now at 24 has 2 kids! oh gosh she gave birth at 19 :O that's me next yr and i can't imagine being in her shoes.

and this explains why she keeps asking me to marry,maybe one day i shall tell her, oh noo,i have no one to love like you did.hehehe

oh please sissy don't question me about anything related to this - i'll have no answers for you cause i'm a lost and confused kid in this matter.

ahhh,i'm still high over le maid's story which she told a few nights ago.

can't help but imagine myself in the village and having a dude coming to ask for permission to take me out...but what if i don't want to go with that dude and someone older says yes? :O

i'll go if the dude owns a bike,kekekeke. over obsession with motorbikes.

Younger guys?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S WITH ME AND GUYS YOUNGER THAN ME.

Oh gosh, I need to maintain,

The irony of me saying I think its ideal that the guy is older than the girl and turns out I don't live by what I say.

Hmm,but honestly who is so particular about who they're talking to?I mean if the age gap is super huge then ya they'll be cautious if not then..urg I don't know luh.

I've been living in this delusion for idk how long and it's :( to find out it was all just a made up story of mine.

For once I want to be younger.though I love february because it's most special-28 days,I wish I was a December baby.lol.here's me just upset.

Feels like you're going away because you're younger.how the fuck do I explain this to you.

What's wrong with her for bringing this issue up.

I'm so curious,I need to know what you found out about him but this relationship between us has turned too sour. It's not appropriate to ask.I can't be so matlabi (can't think of the eng word for this).

Aiyooo.I need to accept that I'm never going to know the conversations.

Brain needs to stop thinking,oh well,goodnight

-Xoxo