Younger guys?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S WITH ME AND GUYS YOUNGER THAN ME.

Oh gosh, I need to maintain,

The irony of me saying I think its ideal that the guy is older than the girl and turns out I don't live by what I say.

Hmm,but honestly who is so particular about who they're talking to?I mean if the age gap is super huge then ya they'll be cautious if not then..urg I don't know luh.

I've been living in this delusion for idk how long and it's :( to find out it was all just a made up story of mine.

For once I want to be younger.though I love february because it's most special-28 days,I wish I was a December baby.lol.here's me just upset.

Feels like you're going away because you're younger.how the fuck do I explain this to you.

What's wrong with her for bringing this issue up.

I'm so curious,I need to know what you found out about him but this relationship between us has turned too sour. It's not appropriate to ask.I can't be so matlabi (can't think of the eng word for this).

Aiyooo.I need to accept that I'm never going to know the conversations.

Brain needs to stop thinking,oh well,goodnight

-Xoxo

Weekend

The weekend started off pretty fun with a short shopping spree in the morning and a peaceful afternoon and family night.

The kids are here for good.house gonna be filled w le lovely family all the way till Christmas..

It was fun fun fun until this morning,

Woke up having a real bad body ache and stomach been hurting since forever.

Oh gosh,body please get well soon.there's ton of things I wanna do and I wanna meet my girls tomorrow too ao body you can't fail on me alright.

In a huge dilemma whether or not to eat right now.I dont want my body to starve neither do I want to start puking non stop.

It just feels weird from within.

Holidays!

Yay! I was happy to wake up today to know that holidays awaits me in just a few hrs!

Though I was pretty nervous and was on the verge of giving up,I'm really thankful I was able to answer every question,every part of it.whether it's right or wrong or if I score well or not it doesn't really matter.because I feel I did what I could.

But yes itll be a pity if I didnt do well cause I could've if I had put in more effort on studying.

Also I would've completely forgotten how it feels like to stay till the end of the paper if not for today,thank you ba and thankyou my friends for wanting me to say bye to you guys before heading off.

Overall I had a good short last day in school for the year.

May 2013 bring more joy and make me strive harder in terms of education.

Yay again! Because my family feels more complete now,I managed to live half a sem on my own.and I'd say a big yes to joint families in future.

Just awaiting Christmas now for a splendid family reunion.feels like it's been awhile!

And though ive been having a happy and rather busy day..,I still end up in my bed tonight thinking of you.really makes me wonder if I ever cross your mind for just a split second in the entire day.I'm attached to you already..too quickly and too much amd too surprisingly.I no longer know how to run away from it but stubborn me doesn't feel like harping on you.so pleaseeee come.

I think I'd better sleep before my mind wanders too far away..

goodnight dear space

<3

12/12/12

Sorry for raping you my dear blog but I really have to let this all out somewhere if not I'll fall weak myself than whose goimy to take care and work the brains to try and solve everything else?

Uh no...just when I thought I coud be a super girl, a splendid sister and a fighter daughter.boohoo.now he's going to have sleepless night and I know it.I'm 100% sure and it sucks to know I can't do anything.and you probably think I'm inhuman and mean and what not for not telling you but I promised and I didn't want you to worry.you were already not having such a pleasant day,

Aiyooo..you know he can't handle stress yet you do it.

What's wrong with the world?!

So many you-s in this post,bet when I read back I wont be able to figure out but oh well it makes perfect sense to me right now so..

I need to be prepared and I have approximately 36 hours to brace and gather all the positiveness I need to handle this!

I believe I can do this.all of this it's more important than my self-created drama life.

I don't even care if all of those people left but i'd be nice if they could be there so I can have a break.but I don't NEED them.

No expectations.



It's not been a pleasant 12/12/12.

I'm a fighter and I know it.

Dramamama

I cannot watch romantic dramas! I take them too personally.

It's okay,I believe one day my love story will be much more romantic and loving and sweet and beyond cheesy than all the dramas I've ever watched.

K bye

uneasy

i'm feeling so uneasy.feels as though my heart is racing to catch i don't know what.
i can't seat still, nor can i watch tv in peace. let alone study. thank god i managed to convince myself to do some housework but its incomplete.fuck all this shit.
i need to exercise control on myself.stop using words in a different context.it spoils the image of myself.
urg. everything feels horrible.what i used to enjoy seems to be irritating me.what do i do? oh help me please.someone,something.
everything seems to be in a mess and it sucks to know..uh dammit.too much tension is stopping me from working.and oh no i have one more paper to go.i need and want to salvage everything.

behaviour

studying for my organisational behavior exam which is tomorrow makes me think of my own behavior.
i believe my behavior pattern differs in different situations. its both a good and bad thing i guess.

at the moment,it sucks and its a disappointment to say that i feel i'm falling weak.
oh fuck,no not again,i need to pick myself up even before i fall.
i guess building a great wall of china would do it all :D

i want to be the girl whose a fighter, aggressive and fierce on the surface but soft-hearted from the inside.
i'm easily contented and i guess i shouldn't show this trait until at an appropriate time...sounds like a plan? hopefully,this would get me somewhere...

feels as though i'm the wanderer who is actually lost right but i know that deep down inside me i've this clear path that i would eventually take.wondering only cause i cannot foresee the amount and degree of obstacles that's going to come before me. i'm not sure i'm ready to take up all the challenges to reach my destination.

please give me the strength to do what it takes to get to my destination.

<3