Why can't Singapore have a mega long summer vacation too? you see,it'll now make sense considering the weather these days.
Although i like Mr Sun,the weather is way too humid.moreover when I have to wear jeans on most days :/
I'm just coming up with excuses because i want a longer term break. idk what's wrong with me but school irritates me.I'm turning into a potato couch, a sloth.sighs. there's reasons for me to head to school but the reasons for me not to head to school seem to take the troll most of the time.boohoo.
Project submission tmr morning, and then project meeting after class are the reasons I'm heading to school.
Not looking forward to this wk of school,esp tues and friday,where i'll be seeing auntie tutor,feels as though she's going to strangle me dead...and then there's a group report due friday too.haiya.the thought of heading back to school is by itself chaotic alr.
Haven't been having much time on my social sites and to laze around. its always either out or it's time to work on some assignments. for all other times it's just i need a break and i end up on the bed or in front of the tv.
Le mind has been wondering a lot a lot too,it's bad really bad. but my healthy ego has been keeping me uprooted and controllable. i haven't been ranting about my shits to anyone,and neither do i have the time to blog it out. people in general are annoying and mind-pissing,that's all i'll say for now.
Someone please give me a pat on my back because i finished my video project in one and a half day!! though it's a grp thing i managed to do say 3/4 of it on my own,BRAVO.probably the only productive thing this holidays,haha,but still i'm not regretting what i've done these 2 weeks,hehe.
Thumbs down to school tomorrow~
<3
Sunday, 24 June 2012
Thursday, 21 June 2012
:) :O :( :/ !
21st of June, i didn't realise until today that i have so many friends whose birthday falls today!
A very very blessed 18 to:
Amanda
Isha
Yan Yi
Vanessa
I'm :) because i feel i've spent this holidays quite well. Definitely not in the sense of homework and projects but because i was hardly home which means i've not been lazing around. okay,i admit that i spent 1 whole day slogging around the house. i've also spent sometime with the family after quite awhile.
I'm :O because i see myself getting caught up with things i didn't expect myself to. and surprisingly,my decision to solo the contract project is still standing my me.i'm amazed at myself when i read my replies to that particular group mate,why am i so mean to him when he barely did anything bad to me?
I'm :( because shab is not responding to me,whywhywhy? this never happened before.he may have taken days to reply but he always did. it's coming to a week and no news from him. i'm anxious probably because i FINALLY had courage but then seems like things around don't support me,le sighs.
I'm fixated on him,does that even make sense?
The obsession is undying,so bad you can totally tell if you view my tumblr. My tumblr,these few days, seems to be the emotional me and not me with my crazy thoughts of marriage.
I'm :( that holidays are coming to an end. I haven't have enough.
I'm :/ because my projects are due first wk of school and i'm barely halfway through.
Pretty much sums up my emotions.Chaos,off for an attempt at getting a step closer to completing my report.
Sunday, 17 June 2012
FATHER'S DAY
My dad may not exactly be my hero nor an ideal father that i've always dreamt of nonetheless i appreciate all his efforts to make me happy and smile on the slightest moments.
I may have a thousand complaints,rants,down moments with regards to my dad but i can confidently say deep down there in my heart,i truly love him a lot because if not for him i would not be here today.
After a few tragic moments in my life, i have totally and fully understood the importance of appreciation and more importantly the appreciation of my parents.
Never down in my memory lane do i remember celebrating father's day. We only had mother's day every year.I decided to make things different this year. I felt I was missing out on something important this mother's day,i missed my mum so badly,i felt deprived and that the world is so cruel to snatch this joy away from me but then when reality hit,i knew everyone has to go eventually,it's part and parcel of life.so i decided to seize all the moments on father's day.
and i'm glad i did!
I got my dad and my brothers a cake,a really yummy tasting one and it looked pewtty too,hehe.
and then today I took my dad to the zoo.yay. it's been ages since i last went out with my dad and since my dad went out with the rest of the family. normally its just us siblings and the kiddos,dad never came along,he always made excuses and ya but i'm really happy to have spent today with him!
It's a father's day to remember!
I hope everyone of you out there had a great time with your dad's too!
Seize every moment with him and have a blasting time.
I love you dad!<3
I may have a thousand complaints,rants,down moments with regards to my dad but i can confidently say deep down there in my heart,i truly love him a lot because if not for him i would not be here today.
After a few tragic moments in my life, i have totally and fully understood the importance of appreciation and more importantly the appreciation of my parents.
Never down in my memory lane do i remember celebrating father's day. We only had mother's day every year.I decided to make things different this year. I felt I was missing out on something important this mother's day,i missed my mum so badly,i felt deprived and that the world is so cruel to snatch this joy away from me but then when reality hit,i knew everyone has to go eventually,it's part and parcel of life.so i decided to seize all the moments on father's day.
and i'm glad i did!
I got my dad and my brothers a cake,a really yummy tasting one and it looked pewtty too,hehe.
and then today I took my dad to the zoo.yay. it's been ages since i last went out with my dad and since my dad went out with the rest of the family. normally its just us siblings and the kiddos,dad never came along,he always made excuses and ya but i'm really happy to have spent today with him!
It's a father's day to remember!
I hope everyone of you out there had a great time with your dad's too!
Seize every moment with him and have a blasting time.
I love you dad!<3
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Thursday, 14 June 2012
Negativity~
I think I can be an astrologist ^^
I seem to be predicting my feelings, emotions, outcomes of things I do,etc etc.
and to my horror, not so dramatic luh, and to my surprise, not so surprising since i predicted it, it goes with my thoughts.fuck this shit.
ya from the title you can tell that all the thoughts, prediction are on the down side.
it's the holidays and i thought i can have a peace of my mind during the two weeks of vacation since most of my problems seemed to be school/ project related in the past few months.
thinking back now,i feel as though i indulge myself in school related problems to avoid having to worry about other problems..you know keeping yourself so caught up with surface problems to avoid deeper ones?
but now that there's no school,my mood is getting spoiled by school related shit.honestly,i can't wait to graduate.i know everywhere i go there would still be problems but that's just the feeling i get.
So i got shot down by my auntie tutor in the presence of my course mates on the online portal :/ :(
she's such a bitch.why didn't she said a sentence or two to show her appreciation towards my work? obviously because she doesn't even appreciate it. fuck off seriously. you don't know how alone i am in this, i bet you don't even care cause you think it's my duty to seek help and sort out my other problems but hell ya bitch words are easy to utter but actions are hard to show.you should be wise enough to know this by now! or maybe you turned old too early cause you were too busy shoving people off your life.
okay,i'm starting to not make sense.
anyway, this auntie tutor she looks down on us!
In the instructions to our next project, she insulted all of us for the work we handed in for the first project and that we're not on par with the paralegals out there and that we'll be fired -.- and that we're not ready for corporate law.
I think that bitch needs to understand a few things:
1. Project 1 is not graded - us being us won't do it with our hearts and souls
2. We aren't even paralegals YET so you're fucking wrong to compare us with one
3. You're looking down on the paralegals out there by comparing us with them. if we're on par, something would be seriously wrong.
4. Your threatens or say it your way your motivations are not working on us,clearly not!
5. Family law is a separate entity from corporate law. if we aren't good at family law doesn't mean we'll suck at corporate law too.
6. i think there's a lot for you to learn because you clearly are just having fun screaming on your end without feeling the need to understand the situation of your students. i therefore, declare you to be a horrible tutor.
sorry,for such blunt and harsh words but really,after reading her writings to us, i see no need to be nice anymore. Maybe it would've been better if for more supportive and not self fish group mates.
see how much school is affecting me even during the holidays?!
and then my love story is at stale. why oh why don't you reply me? there's a thousand reasons i can think of for not receiving a reply but this one horrible reasoning keeps repeating itself :(
i won't give up. there's no turning back once i've made the decision and the first move. it's only 2/11 tries,effectively i have 9 more to go,hwaiting~
In my previous post,i said i wanted to say something nice about ..............but i'll wait. sad to say, time has changed things and my mind too. i feel so zoned,fucked up.i don't even know why i keep giving in when i'm not obliged to and that i don't owe anyone anything. i would happily carry out my duties if the one i'm carrying out my duties to would do the same. why must i do my part when you haven't done yours? you only started your part when you were forced and had no other options.so should i do the same? well, i can't stand myself being so mean so good on you and cries on me.
people should stop claiming self importance.
I really hope some light would shed in my life sooon!
till then may the odds ever in my favour and yours too (:
<3
I seem to be predicting my feelings, emotions, outcomes of things I do,etc etc.
and to my horror, not so dramatic luh, and to my surprise, not so surprising since i predicted it, it goes with my thoughts.fuck this shit.
ya from the title you can tell that all the thoughts, prediction are on the down side.
it's the holidays and i thought i can have a peace of my mind during the two weeks of vacation since most of my problems seemed to be school/ project related in the past few months.
thinking back now,i feel as though i indulge myself in school related problems to avoid having to worry about other problems..you know keeping yourself so caught up with surface problems to avoid deeper ones?
but now that there's no school,my mood is getting spoiled by school related shit.honestly,i can't wait to graduate.i know everywhere i go there would still be problems but that's just the feeling i get.
So i got shot down by my auntie tutor in the presence of my course mates on the online portal :/ :(
she's such a bitch.why didn't she said a sentence or two to show her appreciation towards my work? obviously because she doesn't even appreciate it. fuck off seriously. you don't know how alone i am in this, i bet you don't even care cause you think it's my duty to seek help and sort out my other problems but hell ya bitch words are easy to utter but actions are hard to show.you should be wise enough to know this by now! or maybe you turned old too early cause you were too busy shoving people off your life.
okay,i'm starting to not make sense.
anyway, this auntie tutor she looks down on us!
In the instructions to our next project, she insulted all of us for the work we handed in for the first project and that we're not on par with the paralegals out there and that we'll be fired -.- and that we're not ready for corporate law.
I think that bitch needs to understand a few things:
1. Project 1 is not graded - us being us won't do it with our hearts and souls
2. We aren't even paralegals YET so you're fucking wrong to compare us with one
3. You're looking down on the paralegals out there by comparing us with them. if we're on par, something would be seriously wrong.
4. Your threatens or say it your way your motivations are not working on us,clearly not!
5. Family law is a separate entity from corporate law. if we aren't good at family law doesn't mean we'll suck at corporate law too.
6. i think there's a lot for you to learn because you clearly are just having fun screaming on your end without feeling the need to understand the situation of your students. i therefore, declare you to be a horrible tutor.
sorry,for such blunt and harsh words but really,after reading her writings to us, i see no need to be nice anymore. Maybe it would've been better if for more supportive and not self fish group mates.
see how much school is affecting me even during the holidays?!
and then my love story is at stale. why oh why don't you reply me? there's a thousand reasons i can think of for not receiving a reply but this one horrible reasoning keeps repeating itself :(
i won't give up. there's no turning back once i've made the decision and the first move. it's only 2/11 tries,effectively i have 9 more to go,hwaiting~
In my previous post,i said i wanted to say something nice about ..............but i'll wait. sad to say, time has changed things and my mind too. i feel so zoned,fucked up.i don't even know why i keep giving in when i'm not obliged to and that i don't owe anyone anything. i would happily carry out my duties if the one i'm carrying out my duties to would do the same. why must i do my part when you haven't done yours? you only started your part when you were forced and had no other options.so should i do the same? well, i can't stand myself being so mean so good on you and cries on me.
people should stop claiming self importance.
I really hope some light would shed in my life sooon!
till then may the odds ever in my favour and yours too (:
<3
Monday, 11 June 2012
guilty pleasure
helloooooo,it's the first official day of holidays and i'm already broke :/ :(
but heck it as long as i enjoy!! heheh.
it's the great singapore sale but i don't see any cheap good deals around!
that's singapore for you, they make false claims on sales and trick you on buying expensive stuff...
but i got one great buy! its a wedge, a navy blue wedge, a pretty wage and the best part is that it isnt that high so i can wear it casually and i was really lucky cause it was the last piece of my size. it's really depressing when you want a shoe real bad and there isn't any size but yay for today.
guilty pleasure of retail therapy today.
was browsing through twitter and saw so many course mates heading back to school to do projects and what not. there's so many things by which i mean assignments and projects to be done this holiday.
what's holidays then? hais...
guilty pleasure part 2 to come by tomorrow.
guess i'll have to exercise self restrain and lock myself in on wednesday at least to complete some work.have a feeling i'll end up watching dramas and movies though :/
have yet to decide if i should join the gang for bbq on thursday.hopefully bro's family takes a set of keys out with them so i can make a last minute decision.
so today,my brain's wondering way too far. i'm running mad turning insane with my thoughts really, when i'm in my normal and stable state i do think i'm ridiculous and weird at times, ohh ouuh :/ did i just admit it i feel that way too?hahaha,well, my 'bluntly honest affair' seems to be hooked onto me for quite sometime now.kinda like it sometimes but hell no i hate it at all other times. i hate it when i'm so bluntly honest to 'other people' people whom i'm not close to because it just reveals to much about me and i also hate it when i use un-pleasing words to the ear with my good friends.
well the point for saying all this is that today i was wondering:
how the world progressed so far to what it is today when it only started off with scares of land and trees.
amazing how waterfalls, used to be the beauty of nature, now can be made by mankind themselves.
how people of the early days found out that they can have babies by having sexual intercourse with their mate.
how resources were discovered.
how such pretty building were inspired by amazing architects.
how entertainment such as music and television came about.
everything that i see triggered a question in my mind.
and then i sat here thinking and i believe i've got my answer.
everything is created and given my almighty and i'm really thankful for his blessings in my life.
though there are things i wished had turned out differently over the span of 18 years, i truly believe and have faith that every move of his is for the better of me.i believe i'm gifted in several ways
amen.
all this thinking of mine got disrupted and all i'd want to say at the moment is that some people should learn to be more sympathetic rather than rubbing salt onto the wound. how'd you feel if you were placed in that situation? please have an answer to that question every time before you open your mouth to speak. it would be greatly appreciated by one and all.
<3
but heck it as long as i enjoy!! heheh.
it's the great singapore sale but i don't see any cheap good deals around!
that's singapore for you, they make false claims on sales and trick you on buying expensive stuff...
but i got one great buy! its a wedge, a navy blue wedge, a pretty wage and the best part is that it isnt that high so i can wear it casually and i was really lucky cause it was the last piece of my size. it's really depressing when you want a shoe real bad and there isn't any size but yay for today.
guilty pleasure of retail therapy today.
was browsing through twitter and saw so many course mates heading back to school to do projects and what not. there's so many things by which i mean assignments and projects to be done this holiday.
what's holidays then? hais...
guilty pleasure part 2 to come by tomorrow.
guess i'll have to exercise self restrain and lock myself in on wednesday at least to complete some work.have a feeling i'll end up watching dramas and movies though :/
have yet to decide if i should join the gang for bbq on thursday.hopefully bro's family takes a set of keys out with them so i can make a last minute decision.
so today,my brain's wondering way too far. i'm running mad turning insane with my thoughts really, when i'm in my normal and stable state i do think i'm ridiculous and weird at times, ohh ouuh :/ did i just admit it i feel that way too?hahaha,well, my 'bluntly honest affair' seems to be hooked onto me for quite sometime now.kinda like it sometimes but hell no i hate it at all other times. i hate it when i'm so bluntly honest to 'other people' people whom i'm not close to because it just reveals to much about me and i also hate it when i use un-pleasing words to the ear with my good friends.
well the point for saying all this is that today i was wondering:
how the world progressed so far to what it is today when it only started off with scares of land and trees.
amazing how waterfalls, used to be the beauty of nature, now can be made by mankind themselves.
how people of the early days found out that they can have babies by having sexual intercourse with their mate.
how resources were discovered.
how such pretty building were inspired by amazing architects.
how entertainment such as music and television came about.
everything that i see triggered a question in my mind.
and then i sat here thinking and i believe i've got my answer.
everything is created and given my almighty and i'm really thankful for his blessings in my life.
though there are things i wished had turned out differently over the span of 18 years, i truly believe and have faith that every move of his is for the better of me.i believe i'm gifted in several ways
amen.
all this thinking of mine got disrupted and all i'd want to say at the moment is that some people should learn to be more sympathetic rather than rubbing salt onto the wound. how'd you feel if you were placed in that situation? please have an answer to that question every time before you open your mouth to speak. it would be greatly appreciated by one and all.
<3
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
URGE
Here I am blogging in the midst of mid-sem tests! argg,couldn't resist the urge to do so.
I don't exactly know what i want to blog abt but i just do.
Am currently bored of school...studies is still ok as long as it's not something shitty,long-winded and boring.haha,that completely covers what i'm supposed to be studying now and for the next 2 days!
Couldn't my auntie tutor choose some interesting case? maybe the case she choose to test us on seemed interesting to her..that should explain the age gap between us. but seriously we're learning family law and she had to choose a case on matrimonial assets instead of all other interesting topics?
and the case i swear is stupid. here's a summary:
this couple they're been married for 49 yrs. now pursue a divorce and because they're filthy rich there's an issue in dividing their assets. Like anyone else, both parties want more share to the assets so yah they argue on stupid basis which is dragged on and on in words in the case. In conclusion, not much changes are made to the original decision of the high court. just that some property are not included as matrimonial assets due to double entry and the date of purchase,etc. so the value of their matrimonial assets drops and is divided based on the decision of the high court of 35:65 in favour of the husband.
30+ pages of crap summarised in a few lines with redundant words in them -.-
i had this uber strong urge to blog about my dad yesterday.well shall save that to sunday which i presume is father's day. (:
and after mst i shall finally fulfill another urge of my and cancel off another item on my to-do list, here's an update for now:
1. Rebond hair
2. Dye hair
3. Register for driving
4. Ear piercing
5. M18 movie
6. Get a new phone
7. Permanently close the bloody gap in my freaking teeth!
8. Plan a surprise birthday party for at least 1 person close to my heart
9. Get a earning collection
10. Experience the work industry!!!!! (feeling sucha loser not having worked even once in my life :/)
11. As crazy as it sounds,i wanna buy a pack of ciggs THIS DOES NOT EQUATE TO CONSUMPTION
12. Ice-cream buffet
13. Shisha?
14. Travel outta Singapore
15. Confront a fear (probably heights) = go to an amusement park and try out the craziest ride
16. Say iloveyou to the person who in my thinking deserves it
17. Have a go at manicure
18. Sleep in a lingerie
woohooo, 7 more things to go! i foresee myself being unable to complete 3 things ): but nonetheless i'll try my best!!
chaos till mst ends~
<3
I don't exactly know what i want to blog abt but i just do.
Am currently bored of school...studies is still ok as long as it's not something shitty,long-winded and boring.haha,that completely covers what i'm supposed to be studying now and for the next 2 days!
Couldn't my auntie tutor choose some interesting case? maybe the case she choose to test us on seemed interesting to her..that should explain the age gap between us. but seriously we're learning family law and she had to choose a case on matrimonial assets instead of all other interesting topics?
and the case i swear is stupid. here's a summary:
this couple they're been married for 49 yrs. now pursue a divorce and because they're filthy rich there's an issue in dividing their assets. Like anyone else, both parties want more share to the assets so yah they argue on stupid basis which is dragged on and on in words in the case. In conclusion, not much changes are made to the original decision of the high court. just that some property are not included as matrimonial assets due to double entry and the date of purchase,etc. so the value of their matrimonial assets drops and is divided based on the decision of the high court of 35:65 in favour of the husband.
30+ pages of crap summarised in a few lines with redundant words in them -.-
i had this uber strong urge to blog about my dad yesterday.well shall save that to sunday which i presume is father's day. (:
and after mst i shall finally fulfill another urge of my and cancel off another item on my to-do list, here's an update for now:
7. Permanently close the bloody gap in my freaking teeth!
8. Plan a surprise birthday party for at least 1 person close to my heart
10. Experience the work industry!!!!! (feeling sucha loser not having worked even once in my life :/)
12. Ice-cream buffet
14. Travel outta Singapore
15. Confront a fear (probably heights) = go to an amusement park and try out the craziest ride
16. Say iloveyou to the person who in my thinking deserves it
woohooo, 7 more things to go! i foresee myself being unable to complete 3 things ): but nonetheless i'll try my best!!
chaos till mst ends~
<3
Saturday, 2 June 2012
Brace yourself
Temptation: HIGH
Patience: LOW
Risk: HIGH
Resistance: LOW
gosshhh, can't hold it no more.i need to scream and tell you how much i love you,how much i've dreamt about you, how much i've enjoyed talking to you, how much i love your voice, how much i love us and how far i foresee us going. but then again i don't want my hopes to be crushed just like that. reality hit me a few days ago and hit real hard, the percentage we'll work out is probably just 10? i have no idea where the other 90 went to.and then i dont know if telling you is the right thing to do but i seat here thinking everyday it's time to let the cats out of the bag,to face it and to stand strong.it's rather stupid to sit here loving you but do nothing more than weaving false dreams and getting submerged in into unrealistic imaginations.
when is the right time and how is the right way?
hate myself for having this urge at the wrong timing. i mean i hope i can hold on for at least a wk more.
i'm starting to dislike the world in general. too many people have been telling me to get attached, i just dont get WHY! can you tell me? am i not happy enough single? i am,i really am though i know there's someone out there whom i wish i'd be together with today but yah it's fine if we're not.time will bring us together. if we're not meant to be then .....but me constantly seeking for someone to love that's just bullshit okay. i don't get people who say ' i am actively looking for a partner' like wtf,seriously. i know love at first sight does happen but you opening your eyes bigger to search for someone is just not it.
i may have an old fashioned thinking but heck it i still believe that at the right time in your life, someone special will pop by and tadaa it'll just happen.
i also don't understand why people today are so materialistic! why can't people help one another? why must everyone mind their own business and be so heartless or say have a metal heart which is so difficult to melt? i was at my bro's house today and my uncle came out of the blue,happened to open the door and wtf he asked me 'what are you doing here'. like hello it's my bro's house,i have every right to be there.and then out there in the world everyone is mocking one another in some way or another. an accident occurs,people take photo of it instead of helping the injured. the world laughs at the picture posted instead of sympathising and asking how's the injured doing.you know a friend is troubled but you choose to ignore the fact.argh.
life's unfair beyond infinity. and i'm so thankful, great full and appreciative of the people who stand by me in every problem of mine.especially people who aren't so close to me but bare with my endless daily rants! ❤
lastly, i'm starting to feel my obsession over you is beyond infinity, an everlasting one which will stay till my very last breath.❤
Patience: LOW
Risk: HIGH
Resistance: LOW
gosshhh, can't hold it no more.i need to scream and tell you how much i love you,how much i've dreamt about you, how much i've enjoyed talking to you, how much i love your voice, how much i love us and how far i foresee us going. but then again i don't want my hopes to be crushed just like that. reality hit me a few days ago and hit real hard, the percentage we'll work out is probably just 10? i have no idea where the other 90 went to.and then i dont know if telling you is the right thing to do but i seat here thinking everyday it's time to let the cats out of the bag,to face it and to stand strong.it's rather stupid to sit here loving you but do nothing more than weaving false dreams and getting submerged in into unrealistic imaginations.
when is the right time and how is the right way?
hate myself for having this urge at the wrong timing. i mean i hope i can hold on for at least a wk more.
i'm starting to dislike the world in general. too many people have been telling me to get attached, i just dont get WHY! can you tell me? am i not happy enough single? i am,i really am though i know there's someone out there whom i wish i'd be together with today but yah it's fine if we're not.time will bring us together. if we're not meant to be then .....but me constantly seeking for someone to love that's just bullshit okay. i don't get people who say ' i am actively looking for a partner' like wtf,seriously. i know love at first sight does happen but you opening your eyes bigger to search for someone is just not it.
i may have an old fashioned thinking but heck it i still believe that at the right time in your life, someone special will pop by and tadaa it'll just happen.
i also don't understand why people today are so materialistic! why can't people help one another? why must everyone mind their own business and be so heartless or say have a metal heart which is so difficult to melt? i was at my bro's house today and my uncle came out of the blue,happened to open the door and wtf he asked me 'what are you doing here'. like hello it's my bro's house,i have every right to be there.and then out there in the world everyone is mocking one another in some way or another. an accident occurs,people take photo of it instead of helping the injured. the world laughs at the picture posted instead of sympathising and asking how's the injured doing.you know a friend is troubled but you choose to ignore the fact.argh.
life's unfair beyond infinity. and i'm so thankful, great full and appreciative of the people who stand by me in every problem of mine.especially people who aren't so close to me but bare with my endless daily rants! ❤
lastly, i'm starting to feel my obsession over you is beyond infinity, an everlasting one which will stay till my very last breath.❤
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