Thursday, 1 March 2012

It's 1st March!

I shall refrain as much as i can from an emotional blog post today k cause after being emotional for approximately half the day has made me realise that it just goes to show how stuck i am in time and that i'll never be able to move on if i keep surrounding and secluding myself with the same revolving memories of the past.
And also my dear friend alerted me that people would want to see me in a happy state and i agree so i shall try to be happy (:
Before i move into saying anything else i'd sincerely thank the awesome people whom i've been emo-talking to today,i mean they could've ignored me or just answer my question and leave it there but no they didn't. they showed they care but asking me why.
So...
thankyou EP for probing me though i know you must've felt awkward. i know it may not seem to be the right thing to do at times but honestly,if you don't ask i won't tell cause i've started to feel like no one cares :/ and again it's not all that easy to open up. but really i'm appreciative of you being there (: 

thankyou boss for telling me that i can ask you any questions and a bigger thankyou for actually answering me.though i did not get my answer,i saw that you cared and that means a lot to me.i swear you've got some special talent in making people laugh in tensed situations and so thankyou for bringing me off the sad mood even if it was for just a few moments. and i'm sorry if i got you emotional too :/ and ya on a side note,i find you contradicting,ooops! congrats for today too (: 

thankyou luq for telling me that i appear to have an optimistic up front. i've never believed in bringing a sulky face to a different environment but sometimes it can't be help.and if you say i'm optimistic,wait till you find out about my pessimism. you'll get a heart-attack :/ thankyou for taking time off your game for 'consuling' me,if that's what you say you were doing,haha. and whether we change class or not,you'll still be a friend whom i'll treasure (: 

thankyou buddy for responding to my tweets,i tweet to let what i feel out,like some of it,i actually do consider the severity (hmm,is that the right word) of my tweet. but sometimes i just can't help it. and somehow you've been one who has replied to those tweets,telling me to stay strong,cheer up and not be sad,those few words play a big role when one is down,i've come to realise. and this holidays i'm hoping i'll see you often (: 

i suppose at this time i should also thank my sem honey!
i know i've been annoying and anal and quiet and weird and EMOTIONAL these days and i'm really sorry for that. it'll end now,honestly. i'll end it somehow cause i feel tired of being emotional,lol,whut! and ya thankyou for like tolerating my pathetic attitude towards you these days :/ its just that sometimes one falls shot in maintaining and upholding the optimistic front. i'll tell you the true reason soon,when i get the chance to cause i know secretly you'll be wondering why, ❤ that girl!

Okay so yay,the holidays have officially started!!

I think i'm getting weirder as days go by,is this some turning 18 symptom?

I love how extremely honest i've become!! 
but i find it hard to lie now,shit,i mean i can't be telling the whole world the truth always right,if you're my close friend than hell yeah i'd certainly tell you the truth,idc if it's bitter :O

there's quite a number of thing's i wanna do while i'm 18...i think if i spend time thinking,the list will be pages long,ooopsy. to name a few:
-dye hair again (gonna do it tmr!)
-rebond hair 
- ear piercing, considering either lobe orbital,helix or just a normal 2nd/3rd lobe piercing
-enrol myself in some religious class (i've realised how much i do not know abt religion & it's a shame)
- WORK, i need the experience
I've two other things on my mind but i cannot decide if i should try it out or not cause ya its ya'know moral v immoral | right v wrong | id v ego | satisfaction v need |

i plan to do all this before my holidays end,yay,hopefully! 

suggest on which piercing i should get plsplspls! heehe ^^

At some point you have to realise that some 

people can stay in your heart but 

not in your life.


goodnight <3

oh and i ❤ my two sweetest darlings too,just felt the need to say that!



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