Mak-uh-roon

a drop cookie made of egg whites, sugar, usually almond paste orcoconut, and sometimes a little flour.

  

Oh ya,forget to tell you guys that my sissy says, macaroons is the hardest thing to bake.

Based on reality cooking shows that she has watched, no one has ever baked a macaroon the way it is supposed to be :O

It must be really hard and takes a lot of effort huh, we'll try again someday and make it a success.

Positivity at it's best! (:

But I'm sad to say

Jamican farewell is on replay in my head for an unknown reason!

It's always refreshing to meet people who never fail to brighten up your day even if there's little to say (:

But I'm sad to say we didn't click a photo of us together...it's been really long since we last did - the green hornet was the last ):

AND once again I'm blessed and very appreciative to have met the most wonderful people in my life. Because it's with them when i'm my true self, one who is care free without the fear of being judged.
yes the world has become too instance now ,that i actually worry of being judged because the truth is easily hidden and hard to expose. so it's likely that for one mistake that you do you get infinity fingers pointing at you but for infinity good deeds you get nothing in return!

Also,my other social networks, not that i have many but still, tend to make me worry way too much but my 'homies' i'd like to call them are the ones whom i know will take care and make the right decisions for themselves which puts me on a more comforting side (:

haisssss, I'm now thinking of a question that i was asked sometime back: "Will you be able to survive without _______ and ________" the two people who I spend most of my time in school with.
At this point in time, I'm quite certain with my answer and an intuitive feeling tells me that my answer is here to stay. ):
idk,why do i feel so negatively towards them these days?

it fucking takes two hands to clap, you can't always be expecting me trying to clap when you're not going to corporate.sorry,felling angtsy and frustrated now.

It really makes me wonder how i am in their eyes! I don't care what the world thinks about me but i CARE and care waayy too much about what people close to me think about me!
Which explains why i was so affected when that emo girl distant herself away. but with time, one gains strength and people's action makes you realise you were wrong to care so much,sighs. I AM STILL CONTEMPLATING IF I SHOULD TALK TO HER!

WHY MUST EVERYONE LEAVE?

I'm honestly very very very elated for my loveables who've stayed through coming to 6 years now :D

My imperfect buddy who says so little makes me feel more warm than both of you..though i crap and try to be myself, i know deep down there you're fucking judging me but refuse to say a word.

I'm not saying you can't judge me,you can but kindly express your judgements in words to me.it'll enlighten me to know rather than trying to decipher it myself cause your expressions and body language and actions totally shows it!

A happy day should end on a happy note, so i'd like to say i've got some both internally and externally absoultely gorgeous ladies in my life and they're here to STAY!
see how carefree-ly i can say that without having to double confirm it with them.You,the one reading this, I'm right,ain't I? (;

LOVE YOUUUUUUUU
<3

I didn't know that :O

Let's talk about this today:

I think this looks (Y)

I'm trying to make myself more knowledgeable about everything under the sun. Let's see how far i can bring myself,haha! Little faith in myself in this kinda thing,sighs.
I didn't know that tattooing is known to be a sin in le religion. And not only it is a sin to the one getting tattooed but also a sin to the one tattooing, the tattoo attendant i mean to say.
I'm rather surprised, though not completely, to come to know that it's haram cause honestly, i don't see any wrong with it as long as your tattoo is something sensible and not foolish or insulting and stuff and ya you get what i mean. However, le religion says it's a sin because by getting a tattoo or by assisting someone to get a tattoo you're altering and mutilating with your body. and this also equals to changing God's creation. so basically that's why it's  not allowed.

while finding out about tattoos i came across several pages which said that plucking your eyebrows is also a sin. this came as a TOTAL shock. In today's modern era, every other person that you see on the streets gets their eyebrow plucked. Such a trivial matter as it seems to me is also a sin? :O I feel the need to go into depth about this because i do see myself getting my eyebrows shaped in the future,not so soon though. Soon I believe!
If beautifying oneself is a sin by itself than someone like me will cease all activities related thereafter. Life's gonna be so much more simpler that way and precious time would be saved but then again if in today's society I'm going to be like that than my 22 yr old plan will fail big time and i'll lead a life on my own ): but hey,have faith and believe in miracles,hahahaha! 
It's left me to really pounder upon what more interesting facts there is waiting for me to discover.

<3

Awesome girls ♥

People should stop calling random friends of theirs cousins if they're not related through blood. It's annoying. Belonging from the same community/race/culture does not make one related to another to be called cousins. It's a different story if the people are really close to each other and stuff.

Had a really great day and catch up with le cousins on sat..so much walking tired the shit out of only to not be able to sleep ):

Know what,yesterday i realised KARMA truly exists.All the while I've thought that yaa,everyone just brags (including myself) ooops. Saw an experience karma coming right away within an hr or so,gosh.

I wanted to experience night life, not the life of clubbing or whatsoever, and I'm glad i finally did it. Hmm...it doesn't seem to be my cup of tea cause i hate places which are crowded.

Ohh ohh i heard about this chocolate buffet thingy. i wanna go for it but i'm wondering if its worth it -$30
and i WANT to buy myself toms, saw some really pretty ones but I've got no cash,how now brown cow? Buy for me? :D

Tonight was another memorable night. The girls are all still so awesome!funny how the moment i saw them,i was extremely high lika hyper active kid who cannot rest in peace w/o screaming hi,hahaha. so the girls looked dam tired but campfire was gooooooood! it was simply refreshing. ever since poly started, i think today was finally the day i was happily hyper,just enjoying myself. yaaa, so the guides think i'm this crazy high bimbotic girl while polymates cannot imagine me turning high. heeehe,i kinda like it that way too,mysterious, hahaha. Am sooo sooo soo going to make time out to visit them more often,it makes me feel younger and they need the help at the same time,whut,did i just say younger,HAHAHA.ohhh,I was really touched by the guides.they said they actually missed me and that guides was much more happening and awesome with us around,ohh yeah ohh yeah!

OLD SCHOOL GIRL

GOLDEN GIRL

ROCKS

<3

What about a fag?

Today i venture into some research and read up on whether my religion (islam) forbids smoking. I never knew the correct answer to the question of whether smoking is halal. Now I do (:

Basically God and his messenger did not touch on the topic of smoking as back then in the 7th century such an activity did not exist. However, in writing they have set down some basic principles to assist mankind in deciding for themselves whether an activity or consumption so to speak is halal or haram.

Finally,desperate in gaining some knowledge, I'm proud to say from today on I'm going to have less difficulty in knowing what is right for myself (:

Back to smoking, it is tahriman makrooh = strictly abominable thus would be classified as something disliked within the religion and should therefore be without any certainty haram = a sin.

Anything that causes harm to the body or causes harm to anyone else or eventually leads to killing of oneself is considered a sin!

I guess it all boils down to the intention a person has and the reason as to why they smoke. If you, my fellow Muslim brothers and sisters, want to smoke do it privately in the sense that have the puff alone so that minimum harm is caused to others (:

<3

hmm,uhh,huh

There's no inspiration for a title to today's post ):
I've been wanting to blog about quite a few things lately....but it happened to be either i'm caught up with something else or i'm just to lazy to type it out.

Disappointed at myself for the 2nd wk of holidays. i did basically nothing productive. locked myself in the house and only stepped out after 4 freaking days, quite a shock considering how i desperately i need the 'fresh' air,hahaha!

It's time to shake off the laziness and come up with a whole not-so-new-but-new lifestyle!
The first huge thing to kick out is the amount of sleep i get each day, though its a blessing that i'm able to sleep as long as i please, it's a major annoying factor in my life at the moment. i can't stand waking up so late yet i can't get my ass off the bed any earlier :/

Efforts really do pay off but having the will and being motivated to put in the effort is the challenging and difficult part!
I'm really satisfied with my results though it's not my best,cause i definitely know it could've been better, its enough to make smile (:

I totally love DORA!
and i love that dude too  whose intonation is completely weird and the eye blinks 60 times a second all of which amuses me.what's more,awkward moments with the dude more than once,goshhh.

Overall, I'm really thankful for my productive and helpful groupmates. yes i refuse to give credit to the ones who left me /us all alone in misery. it's not all that easy to forgive afterall,hehe.

With the improvement in my grades,I'm all set to do better and strive for the best in my next year! (:

PS: Supp papers commences next wk & I'm hoping my dear friends excel in them,its fucking dreadful to re-take a module,i've come to understand.

<3

Life

You're only given 1 life to live so why waste it,right? speaking like a typical kiasu singaporean, who wants to let go of an opportunity given to them?more so when technically its 'free' although there's a 1000 reasons as to why its not.
Though due to religious perspectives different people may have different views on the number of life's we're given, truly i believe there's only one,cause no man has till date proved the number of time he's been on earth. okay i don't know how to phrase this but ya, like you don't know if you've been born before right,so how can you be certain that you'll re-born and be given another chance to live?
and then again what's the certainty that hell or for that matter heaven exists?
It all boils down to what you choose to believe and reside in.

Ya so, in this 1 life you're given, why'd you want to end it? I think people who're giving up on living should really sit down and have a good,deep thought over this:
Why were you born?
What's the purpose in life?
Why do you want to give up when you can choose to move on?
What kept you going on all these while?
Aren't you gonna regret?
Isn't there still a tons of things you'd wanna do before you die?

If you're given the chance to continue living each day,i think you should be blessed cause thousands of people are dying out there and they might be the ones who'd actually choose to live rather than die,be it for whatever reasons.

Whether you believe in god,or in science or in yourself, i'm sure you'll find a reason to live.

On a side note, i'm really curious in the religion that believes in themselves! i can't remember the term used to define the religion but  i think it's interesting and unique that they think they themselves are god.

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade!

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” 

Isn't ^ just amazing. but i disagree that 90% is how i react to it because certain things come unexpected and it takes time before one can portray their true reactions or attitude so to speak as the immediate attitude would be one of perhaps shock which'll lead to delusional emotions and thoughts. it takes sometime before the human body gets a grip of itself and starts functioning normally. therefore, for instances where immediate attitude is required that above maybe inaccurate,well at least to my believe.

To my buddy, Life is a struggle,fight it!

This is very accurate & true,been there,experienced it!




Live like there's no tomorrow!

The ones who deserve the sun are always put in the dark! 

<3

Pressing the reset button

A random thought triggered the title for today's post.

I feel like i've pressed the reset button,having said that its what i feel on the surface only,did not and do not intend to go into deep thoughts about this!

I think my life's changed quite a bit in a good way (:

So i've spent sometime doing my research and i think i've more or less decided..here's the pics:

concentration.brand.size.flavour.price.quantity. all decided!

I was shopping the other day and my eyes laid on some pretty stuff, and i'm surprised i saw it in a Chinese shop. Not that i'm racist or whatsoever but i always thought it originated either from ancient india or some middle east country. i should find that out,to increase my GE,hehehe. 

and and and never knew one pipe would cost a bomb! over a thousand dollars but the design they "carve" on it is really pleasing to the eyes! Have a look:

i like the COLOUR!

hahaha,this is funny, it resembles some sort of dolls!

Anw,the one i saw was much prettier in blue!

Herbal tobacco sey, makes me wonder which is not herbal,seriously.

<3

Time flies!

Heyy!

Holidays seem to be flying past way too quick,I'm quite occupied which is a good thing i guess,if not i'll start complaining and my mind will run wild.

Gosh,i think turning 18 has made me much more decisive and a sucha money spender.i've been spending as though money is never-ending.boooooo!

As much as i want my life to be simple and smooth, i picture my 18 to be a roller-coaster ride. with so many different things in store for me,i'm looking forward to it! and never in my life have i been so particular about my age, but now i find myself mentioning i'm 18 almost everyday.
mystery changes in life to which the 'why' i'd probably never discover. 

Hmmm, i was just wondering about awkward situations.
Awkward situations don't just occur on their own, do they? I'm sure its formed cause of awkward people, no?
I mean if you're the awkward one, place in situations, the entire situation becomes awkward! does that make sense? yes,it does to me. and holy shit, i'm the awkward one! hownowbrowncow?
so yes, friday night was awkward, at least i felt it was. i mean who on earth goes to a gathering and not socialize and not initiate to talk? the answer is ME. okay,more like i chose whom i wanted to talk to. what's going on?
and then the epic moment when my dear friends were like, gooooo stop her and all i did was to literally screamed her name,attempted to catch her attention but failed :/
oh well, she had to find out some day or other right? maybe the situation in which she found out was not right... wait, i don't even know if she found out or not!!!!
Totally made myself seem lika fool. 

The day ended with my awesome careperson giving us a lift to the mrt. she's way too nice, i love her, can she be my careperson again and again till my life in poly ends? i don't even want to experience being under the care of some other lecturer because i know mine's the best! (:

Before i end this post, i wanna ask which is worst - consuming tobacco or smoking?

Learn to appreciate what you have before

 time forces you to appreciate what you 

had.

<3

HAPPIIEEEEEEEEEEE

Harlow,a happy girl is here blogging today!

Life's good when you get to do absolutely anything you want to with so much ease and are able to construct the road of life with your very own hands!(:

positivity has definitely hyped into me,haha!

So as nearly 10 ten days pass since i've been 18, i've decided to come up with a list of 18 things i wanna get done by this year,and yes,i'm gonna stick to it and try my best to accomplish everything before i turn...urm 19? but of course at this hyper happy mood i am in right now, i'd want to complete it asap if possible (:

Here it goes:
1. Rebond hair
2. Dye hair
3. Register for driving
4. Ear piercing
5. M18 movie
6. Get a new phone
7. Permanently close the bloody gap in my freaking teeth!
8. Plan a surprise birthday party for at least 1 person close to my heart
9. Get a earing collection
10. Experience the work industry!!!!! (feeling sucha loser not having worked even once in my life :/)
11. As crazy as it sounds,i wanna buy a pack of ciggs THIS DOES NOT EQUATE TO CONSUMPTION
12. Ice-cream buffet
13. Shisha?
14. Travel outta Singapore
15. Confront a fear (probably heights) = go to an amusement park and try out the craziest ride
16. Say iloveyou to the person who in my thinking deserves it
17. Have a go at manicure
18. Sleep in a lingerie

actually there are more WILD things that i wanna do but if i put it on my list,i may not be able to cancel it cause ya it might be morally wrong whether in terms of te society i live in or religious wise... so ya shall make do with the not so crazy ones (:

yayyyyyy!

Issues in life are starting to settle down,well i'd like to assume so since i see things falling into place...yes,i do know that i may be in my dreamland,picturing things perfect when in reality they may not be or it may seem as though i am running away from problems,but if life can go on smoothly without the need to sort things out than what's the harm in doing so,right?
food for thought,haha.

Having conversations relating to life,is it too matured or too deep for someone whose 18? #justasking but secretly wanting to know an answer pretty soooon!

happy girls intends to sleep early so she can have a longer journey in her lalaland!
<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY

So today quite a number of people i know turn a year older!

A very blessed birthday to all of em (:

Especially to my dearest sissy whose been more than what a sister should be <3

Really blessed to have her in my life, after mummy she's been the one trying hard not to make me feel mummy's absence. truly appreciate her efforts though to no avail. She's the one who still pampers me despite the number of kids in the house,haha. The one who says crazy and funny stuff which never fails to make my day :D May Allah grant her happiness,health and taqwa and give her success and strength to overcome all challenges in life! Loveeeee her beyond what one can possibly define love to be <3 

i need to complain about my irritating hair! i regret getting it done,feels like a waste of moneh now :( its only been 3 days and the hair seems to be going back to its original waves,feel so cheated.i mean i didn't spend money for fun ya'know. could've spent on better things,chey. but this really makes me think if perming would've been a better choice..feels like i did the temporary one on my own,the one which goes off once i wash i hair :(

i wanna sue the salon for this,i really do! feeeeling quite happy learning law for once,like i know what course of action i bring against them if i want to,heeee^^ back to ranting,i think i should head back to the salon to complain tomorrow...

I am not used to letting my hair down,feel so annoyed cause it keeps getting in my way but oh well,18 already,need to learn to adapt to changes almost instantly! 

Anyway,feels good to be 18 with a bang!

I wonder how many times i blow-ed the candles on saturday,hahaha,it was hilarious. turning 18 felt like having a make-over done,seriously,my hair and then make-up,woahh,too much at a go!

whatever it is I'm still young and wild!(;

Ohh and it was funny when we met ivy on friday,she was in a dress those that look like winter wear and it was quite shinny,with black boots with heels? idk how to describe it...but yeah it was funny when the guys went "you wear this to school" HAHAHAHA,ikr! shall not comment further

I'm loving the tattoo that says fighter cause at times i feel like one,the more i see that tattoo,the more i can relate to it!!

Oh and the piercing, shiat i can't decide on how high it should be,can somebodeh tell me what to do?!

On a side note,i really wonder who reads this page,cause recently the view are getting higher and I'm just like :O

if you do read it,tell me (:

till then toodles

<3

2nd day of march,tenenenenahnahnahnah

First day of holidays,quite well spent i must say!(:
Finally able to manage social and family life with quite a probable balance.

Glad to have helped out in the house quite a lot today as well as spend quality time with myself,whut am i saying and then with the lamest people in my life (:

So i still haven decide which piercing to get,if i'm mad i'd end up with one of my nose!but i heard its pain and hard to retain the hole :/ i wanna get it done hopefully next wk.

IMISSSSSSSSJAVANA!

Ohohohohoh and yay,talking to shab once again,babeh please reply me,cause life's incomplete without you!
It's always been our thing to reply like an hour later or so to each msg,i wonder why,to me it's cause the conversation will last longer,heee :P

Anyway,totally love the E2 peeps cause they never fail to make me meltz,okay a bit drama but ya. i mean if i'm walking alone,someone will walk beside me and talk to me and crack jokes which sometimes doesn't even make sense,ooops. and de xiao me if that's the right word just cause i'm studying law. the good old people will never change and that's a great thing to know (:
and hell yeah i miss that 'student' of mine as much as he misses me,totally can tell k,HAHA.okay maybe i'm just claiming to be self-important but whatever as long as i'm happy right,right,right?

Getting hyper at this time isn't a good thing!

I miss samson too!
Will she catch a bollywood movie in cinema with me? i should try asking her when it's her hols. hopefully she will if not i swear i have no one to watch a bolly movie with ): and i want to catch one in the theatre, its been long and yes it's one of the things i wanna do!!

I should go figure out how to sign up for basic theory test,toodles
<3

It's 1st March!

I shall refrain as much as i can from an emotional blog post today k cause after being emotional for approximately half the day has made me realise that it just goes to show how stuck i am in time and that i'll never be able to move on if i keep surrounding and secluding myself with the same revolving memories of the past.
And also my dear friend alerted me that people would want to see me in a happy state and i agree so i shall try to be happy (:
Before i move into saying anything else i'd sincerely thank the awesome people whom i've been emo-talking to today,i mean they could've ignored me or just answer my question and leave it there but no they didn't. they showed they care but asking me why.
So...
thankyou EP for probing me though i know you must've felt awkward. i know it may not seem to be the right thing to do at times but honestly,if you don't ask i won't tell cause i've started to feel like no one cares :/ and again it's not all that easy to open up. but really i'm appreciative of you being there (: ❤

thankyou boss for telling me that i can ask you any questions and a bigger thankyou for actually answering me.though i did not get my answer,i saw that you cared and that means a lot to me.i swear you've got some special talent in making people laugh in tensed situations and so thankyou for bringing me off the sad mood even if it was for just a few moments. and i'm sorry if i got you emotional too :/ and ya on a side note,i find you contradicting,ooops! congrats for today too (: ❤

thankyou luq for telling me that i appear to have an optimistic up front. i've never believed in bringing a sulky face to a different environment but sometimes it can't be help.and if you say i'm optimistic,wait till you find out about my pessimism. you'll get a heart-attack :/ thankyou for taking time off your game for 'consuling' me,if that's what you say you were doing,haha. and whether we change class or not,you'll still be a friend whom i'll treasure (: ❤

thankyou buddy for responding to my tweets,i tweet to let what i feel out,like some of it,i actually do consider the severity (hmm,is that the right word) of my tweet. but sometimes i just can't help it. and somehow you've been one who has replied to those tweets,telling me to stay strong,cheer up and not be sad,those few words play a big role when one is down,i've come to realise. and this holidays i'm hoping i'll see you often (: ❤

i suppose at this time i should also thank my sem honey!
i know i've been annoying and anal and quiet and weird and EMOTIONAL these days and i'm really sorry for that. it'll end now,honestly. i'll end it somehow cause i feel tired of being emotional,lol,whut! and ya thankyou for like tolerating my pathetic attitude towards you these days :/ its just that sometimes one falls shot in maintaining and upholding the optimistic front. i'll tell you the true reason soon,when i get the chance to cause i know secretly you'll be wondering why, ❤ that girl!

Okay so yay,the holidays have officially started!!

I think i'm getting weirder as days go by,is this some turning 18 symptom?

I love how extremely honest i've become!! 

but i find it hard to lie now,shit,i mean i can't be telling the whole world the truth always right,if you're my close friend than hell yeah i'd certainly tell you the truth,idc if it's bitter :O

there's quite a number of thing's i wanna do while i'm 18...i think if i spend time thinking,the list will be pages long,ooopsy. to name a few:
-dye hair again (gonna do it tmr!)
-rebond hair 
- ear piercing, considering either lobe orbital,helix or just a normal 2nd/3rd lobe piercing
-enrol myself in some religious class (i've realised how much i do not know abt religion & it's a shame)
- WORK, i need the experience
I've two other things on my mind but i cannot decide if i should try it out or not cause ya its ya'know moral v immoral | right v wrong | id v ego | satisfaction v need |

i plan to do all this before my holidays end,yay,hopefully! 

suggest on which piercing i should get plsplspls! heehe ^^

At some point you have to realise that some 

people can stay in your heart but 

not in your life.

goodnight <3

oh and i ❤❤❤ my two sweetest darlings too,just felt the need to say that!